I never would’ve imagined that catching your eye would turn out to be one of the best things that could’ve happened in my life… You’re such a big part of who I am today.
You’re absolutely wonderful. I feel so fortunate to be a part of your life, even if it’s only for a little while in comparison to the many great things that are in store for you.
Matt…
I’ve had so many nights like these. They’re terrible. Saying certain things to someone who you never thought would have to hear them. I’ve had so many nights like that in the last several months. I never mean to hurt him, but that’s what I always end up doing. and I hate it. I’d feel so shitty afterward, like I didn’t deserve to be happy.
Those moments make you feel so uncertain.
Terribly uncertain.
Tonight’s was the exception. Not only that, but…
I don’t feel as lonely as I did before.
I’ve felt a lot less lonely lately because of you.
And I don’t know about you but… feeling lonely is just about the worst feeling in the world for me. Your kindness means so much during these times. Your company alone, Matt, is such a blessing.
Thank you for talking to me after I told Juan. Really you have no idea…
